The past few months have not been easy and I have found myself in a position that I never imagined. If you had told me in October that I would be here now, I would have laughed at you and called you silly. Yet here I am.
It’s been a roller-coaster of emotions. Some days I feel strong. Some days I remember all that has happened and collapse in tears. Some days I am introspective trying to figure out where this all started and how things got so bad. And some days I wish I could stay in bed all day and not have to worry about the responsibilities that come with being an adult.
As much as this is all-consuming, I have to remind myself to keep my chin up and keep going. Life goes on. I see this with my close friends and family. I may be feeling like the world is coming to an end and that life isn’t fair, yet they will be carrying on just like they did yesterday and the day before that…
So 2014 is my fresh start. It’s a year to focus on me – what makes me happy, what I want to do, what I want to experience. It’s a year of being selfish. And as the months slip by, I will look back and hopefully be happy with where I am, what I’m doing, and who I am. For the meantime, I’m going to keep this poem nearby to remind me of what’s important…
Life is too short
Grudges are a waste of perfect happiness
Laugh when you can
Apologise when you should
And let go of what you can’t change
Love deeply and forgive quickly
Take chances. Give everything.
And have no regrets
Life is too short to be unhappy
You have to take the good with the bad
Smile when you’re sad
Love what you’ve got
And always remember what you had
Always forgive but never forget
Learn from your mistakes
But never regret
People change and things go wrong
But always remember
Life goes on…